But back to the whole birthday thing... I'm a big birthday person. I even celebrate 1/2 b-days. I usually start a countdown after Christmas because I love celebrating so much. But this year, I'm not feeling it. I started the dreaded count down 3 weeks ago when it hit me it was so close- thanks to a dear friend who had to rub it in! You know who you are!!
I have loved being in my 20's. Not to mention, I'm the youngest out of my friends which has always kept me the baby. But you can't say you are the baby when you are 30! I love that you are still somewhat a young adult in your 20's- not quite yet into the full adult stage. You find yourself in your 20's. You get an idea with where you want to go and you start the journey to get there. And I haven't accomplished half of the things I wanted to begin by 30- other than my beautiful daughter. And I've also always said I'd never have children past 30- so I can either have a baby this year, forget what I've said my whole life, or fight internal clocks and be happy with just one.
I'm just now starting to figure things out and I want more time. I want more time to say I'm still a 20-something. And yes, I've heard the 30's are the new 20's. But you know, it doesn't make it any easier. In 2 days (oh man) I will no longer be 20 and will never be again. :( Maybe the 30's will hold great things. But from what I've learned so far, it gets harder and harder every year that you age. So from this point on, I will no longer be celebrating my birthday. April 7th I will be celebrating the 9th anniversary of my 21st birthday. :)
Thanks for listening to my pity party. I will most definitely get over it once I hear the crashing waves, my best friends are by my side, I get to eat my favorite food, and I spend the day in the sun having fun. I now feel guilty for even moaning after reading that last sentence!